About two months ago, Jada (my 11 year old) and Noah (my 8 year old) came home after school super excited. The school had announced that this year they would be sponsoring a few children to attend camp, all expenses paid. All they had to do was write a letter stating why they would like to attend. So, independently they both wrote letters and handed them in to their teachers. ( I don't have a clue what they wrote because they never showed me).
Time went by and we never heard anything in response to the camp so life went on as usual. Until a few days ago when I received a call from the principal. Jada and Noah were both selected to attend the camp. Well, of course I am super excited and grateful. It's what the kids wanted and it's FREE! It's such a huge blessing, right? As the principal is giving me all the details my enthusiasm is starting to decline. "This is an overnight camp and is for a total of 6 days", the principal stated. What began as a moment of excitement and gratefulness soon took a turn. Overnight? 6 days? My heart began to race and my stomach had butterflies. All I could think was, "what if something happens to them, they've never been away from us that long, they aren't the best swimmers"...all these thoughts of fear and doubt overtook me.
If you read my last post, I am working on not letting my fear overtake my life. I'm making a conscious effort to face my fears and challenges and here is the first test. I am not doing well with this at all. I need to keep praying because every bit of me wants to call the camp and cancel, but I won't. I need to let go and let GOD. If I am a child of THE KING, I need to understand that he has everything under control. John 14:1 tells us, Do not let your hearts be troubled, trust in God. My mind understands that He can certainly take better care of my children than I ever could but my heart is troubled.
It's a very difficult thing to relinquish complete control. Nonetheless, if I am making the claim that I trust in God I need to do that in deed and not just in words. This thing called faith is not easy, but God promises it's worth it!
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God I will strengthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand......For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear;I will help you. Isaiah 41:10,13
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